Last Nite I Dreamt

I just got chills reading a certain line in the book “The Three Only Things” by Robert Moss. It is a section about “Dreams of the Old Place,” talking about the dreamer’s soul and how a person’s dream can tell the person about his or her soul, and what is missing in that person’s life. The line reads, “We may find ourselves returning in dreams, again and again, to a childhood home. These dreams may be an invitation to reach back into that place and recover one of our soul-selves that is stuck there.”

I moved out of my old house 10 years ago and never ever went back inside. I cannot tell you the countless number of dreams I have had of that old house (or maybe I can? I post them all on my site!)  Most of the time, I’m dreaming I’m in my room, opening my closet and looking at what’s inside. Of course I wake up in the morning thinking, “Hmm, what clothes and shoes did I have in there?” Other times I dream that I’m walking in from my front door and I’m in my kitchen, opening the cabinets and the refrigerator, curious to see what’s inside. From what I have heard, the inside of my old house is completely different now. Everything has changed, from the floors to the wall colors (I wouldn’t be surprised, I mean, we had green carpet, so who wouldn’t want to change that?) The bad part is that my relatives live right next door to my old house, so I see it almost every few weeks. I only get to see the outside, and I have to leave the rest up to my imagination. I could sometimes get a peak inside the kitchen, but nothing more. I think my constant dreams of my old house keep telling me to go back inside, to see what’s changed. I need closure with my old house, but I don’t know if I want closure. I want to remember my old house the way it was when I moved. My childhood memories are all in that house, and if I ever go back inside, it will be like walking into a new and strange place. Those memories will no longer belong in that house; they will only belong in my head, and in my dreams. Could these dreams of my old house keep telling me that there is still a part of my soul-self stuck in that old house? It’s possible, but I’m not sure if I will ever go back to get it.